de la coco

wished

2009-08-23T13:17:00.000-07:00

wooly grey tights
wool beret
a warm winter jacket.
the sonic brush

one in a million

2009-08-09T17:18:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep tonight. Why do I keep thinking about today? What was so special? I was working from 6:30 am until 2:00 pm. My customers were yet again rude and obnoxious. (No Surprise!) And my co-workers were equally as mean to me as ever. I came home, ichatted with a couple of friends, shopped online... I guess finally buying the "perfect bra" made me happy. Please, please, Aerie, come through with your wireless bralettes! But I guess what I can't say on this account that I really want to say, maybe not to anyone in this world, oh my goodness, why am I so shy even while I am being private?

sometimes

2009-08-08T13:46:00.000-07:00

credits: altamiranyc
Sometimes I wished I had the perfect body. I don't even know what that is. But I wished I could make that one white t-shirt work. You know? I become so inspired by models, to look as flawless as them, but no matter how much research I do, I am not satisfied. I just don't understand what I am doing wrong. Maybe I don't have a pretty face. Maybe I don't have have a face. I should work on getting a face right? Getting a perfect face for photographs. Which face should I have permanently? Do these questions make me sound demented? Ugh... I don't want to throw out the wardrobe that I currently have again. I want to make it work. Maybe I lost myself somewhere within this searching for a new person-- searching for a new person to be. :'(

i wished i could look like taylor warren

via

find yourself

2009-08-04T13:16:00.000-07:00

my new blog:

www.zenzoophotography.blogspot.com

only for my photos

and on here? i guess everything else that is personal, that i am afraid to allow the public to read. the part that i dont want everyone to see-- such an ugly personality behind the camera lens. ugh, such a flawed character, i am. One of my old friends actually asked me if i liked my character. i honestly wanted to smack him in the face for being so rude. but he had a point. i didn't like my character.

everybody's changing, yet i still stay the same

2009-08-03T13:42:00.000-07:00

You know it is really strange to be in this position right now. Going off to college, no longer having a curfew, meeting new people, being around new people 24/7. I have a feeling that I am going to change really fast, the people I am going to love are going to be changing really fast, and there will be an immense shift of feelings. And I kind of feel sad. I know who I am. I am like a chameleon, I change to fit into my environment, and I know everybody does that, but I am different. I change, as in, I change and never come back. I am not the type to remember people from my past; once I click the GO button, I am gone. Sigh~ This is why I know I will never be able to love someone forever.

portfolio

2009-08-03T10:39:00.000-07:00

one of my ultimate dreams is to be a photographer for a magazine. i really don't have a preference ( but i should right? ) but next year, i would love to intern for Rolling Stones or National Geographic or even Vogue. I don't know, I want to be in their world. I have a feeling it is absolutely fascinating. It is a world I can probably learn a lot from.

oh we'd be so free, happy alone, sharing a smile, so far from home

2009-08-02T16:43:00.000-07:00

I guess I have been contemplating about a lot of things. It is the worst when I PMS but right now, I have many thoughts running in my head, both good and bad. I am afraid to rant on this blog. I wished I was one of those people who can keep her feelings private and sacred from the rest of the world. But why do I alway feel the need to always pour my thoughts for everyone to try to hear? Maybe it is because I feel so small and I like being heard. Ugh, but you know what's ironic, I really want to be ignored at the same time so that way, I don't have to anticipate a response. Yesterday, I went over to my aunt's shop in Elmhurst and I just felt so bad for her and my uncle. The recession has hit the shop really hard. They don't even care if they get robbed because they aren't even selling anything. And I wanted to sincerely bring my camera to photograph them, not to boost their business or anything, but to document the faces of those hurt by the recession. You can literally see sadness in their eyes as they sag down every time they speak. And it is worst when a customer comes in to search for something but leaves embarrassingly, unable to find what he/she needed to purchase. It is like a pang in my heart because they are my relatives and I want them to succeed. I want everyone in my life that I love to do well. And when they don't, I feel bad that they don't. But yeah, it sounds like such a bad thing to want to photograph sad people, but that is why I love photography. You can embrace the person in the photograph without even knowing him/her if you become really good. Every time I take a good photograph, I feel a thrill through my bones. It as though I caught a moment in time so perfect and so grand. I feel as though I have control over time for once, that for an instant, I got to see what I wanted; not what God wanted me to see. I had eyes. And I had a say. That is why I am seriously considering upgrading my lens ($200) for the 70-300 mm zoom lens. They are magical. If only I could've zoomed in closer in those zoo animal pictures. Like I am fine the way they are, I have no doubt they could've been better with new lens, but overall, I was very satisfied.

Yesterday, I bought my first concert ticket to see Kings of Leon. Some of my favorite songs from them are: True Love Way, Fans, and Manhattan. I like to dance all night. Hah, great lyrics to open a song! It makes my heart smile, sincerely. Sept 11-- WOOT BOSTON!

macbook pro

2009-08-01T11:31:00.001-07:00

can you control us?

new boots & bag

2009-08-01T11:11:00.001-07:00

my new boots finally came in -- yay!

dr. martens alexia rigger boots

& i bought a new clutch today. it is convertible-- can turn into a cross body bag! very handy if my hands become tired of holding the clutch (MNG by Mango)

older pictures

2009-07-31T13:11:00.001-07:00

thai / malaysian food (yum!)

my friends and i went out to Sentosa's which has amazing thai/malaysian food. and so we ate so much that lucy d. had to take some home with her since it would've been a shame to throw food away especially during times of recession!

Ukranian Breakfast -- Sex on Fire

2009-07-31T08:51:00.000-07:00

Ukranian Breakfast with Fanny J.

we woke up early go to watch the King Of Leons at the NBC Rockefeller Center in the city. However, the rain was pouring and the line was like 2 blocks (1 ave. and 1 street) long. However, we sill stuck around for sound check around 7:oo am. but they weren't going to play until like 9:00 am and we were both so hungry so we went downtown for some food. however, nothing is open at 8:00 and we wanted some japanese udon! so we went to get some polish/ukranian food since we never had it before. and it was sort of good, i guess. the food looked better than it tasted.

i got a feeling!

2009-07-30T17:39:00.001-07:00

zoo with gina m.

it was so much fun looking at the differ animals! and we went to all the exhibitions without paying extra for the congo, monorail rides, and other additional fees! why? because gina m. had a membership card for a free guest. next week, we will go to the aquarium! woot!

i got them docs.

2009-07-26T13:22:00.000-07:00

OH CHYEAH

need.

2009-07-23T18:12:00.001-07:00

i don't really need you. it was really your choice. but now it is mine. so bye.

henry louis gates jr

2009-07-23T15:37:00.000-07:00

was there racial profiling? yes
was obama's comment of "acting stupidly" harsh? no, it was perfectly accurate.

stupid fuckers (i.e. Cambridge police officers.)

national geographic

2009-07-23T11:45:00.000-07:00

national geographic is an amazing magazine. i always read it when i am at my orthodontist's office and the articles are purely and always interesting. and the photos are beyond incredible. i wish i can sit in their camera closet one day and browse through all the lenses and bodies. jesus, i need a life. anyhow, so today, i was looking through national geographic's photographic book with their top portraits of people and places. and dear lord, i wanted to marry the book and the people in it. even one of the pictures made me cry. it was this boy from this village and there was this driver that passed through his farm and killed like half of his sheep. it was a huge loss of profit for his family. and the photographer actually took pictures of the little boy crying with his father in the background trying to gather what had happened. anyhow, i know my language is less than eloquent but my goodness, the photograph was so intense. and i felt like i was in the photograph, as though the emotions in the boy had suddenly overcame me. anyhow, i wished i can be such a photographer one day.

hey toto

2009-07-22T15:34:00.000-07:00

where i stood

2009-07-21T17:14:00.000-07:00

gorgeous.

TY Beanies.

2009-07-16T10:41:00.001-07:00

such a cute triplet.

boston snapshots

2009-07-14T05:19:00.000-07:00

my Boston University adventure was amazing. yes, by amazing, i mean A-MAZING.

it was around 4 a.m. my room mates couldn't sleep! so neither was i!

this was the sunset along the Charles River. It was ((damn straight)) beautiful.

& of course, buying these masks at the Boston MFA (aka like the NY MET). i call it "A Night At The Musuem"

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take my pickcha

2009-07-06T15:14:00.000-07:00

coffee bean

2009-07-05T18:02:00.000-07:00

see you later, blog

things to remember

2009-07-05T17:53:00.000-07:00

the people that change your life.

this was such a strange day. our cross country coach packed up all in this weird car [which read "medical hospital blah blah" and we all went to the beach up in westchester, ny. it was beautiful up there. clean and no people were there around 4pm. we ran for an hour around the beach and then found ourselves jumping into the clear blue sea. then afterwards, we were driven to his little home [a very cute shack] we all came unprepared to face the cool spring weather so he gave each of us a sweater as we parked on his garden, rolling on the green grass. i will miss these days.

thunderstorming tennis

2009-06-06T14:14:00.001-07:00

playing tennis during a thunderstorm. a pretty stupid idea. but i love the whole wet look right before the storm hits!

sweets

2009-06-05T17:10:00.001-07:00

sweets, originally uploaded by delacoco.

a sweet desert always keeps me smiling during the day

new here

2009-06-05T16:55:00.001-07:00

hello everyone